It is hard to believe that 2013 has come and gone, and we are already five days into 2014. I feel guilty for neglecting my blog so much in the past few months. The reason I have not been blogging is very personal, but I feel I can’t be true to myself or my readers and instagram followers without sharing why. In early September my husband and I found out we were expecting another baby! We were elated, we felt another child would make our family complete. We went to my first prenatal appointment and saw our little blob of a baby pulsating on the ultrasound monitor.
Unfortunately when it was time to go to my next appointment at 12 weeks, we learned that I had suffered a missed miscarriage. I had never heard of a missed miscarriage, basically your body acts as though you are pregnant, yet the baby has passed with no signs or symptoms. Needless to say my husband and I were devastated. I felt as though my body had betrayed me. Miscarriages were something that happened to other people, not me or so I thought. Thankfully I have a very strong support system with my husband, family, and close friends.
I’m not going to lie. I was angry, sad, frustrated, depressed, jealous of friends and strangers that were pregnant, drank a little too much wine, and did some major retail therapy. I realized this was no way to live, with the exception of wine and shopping in moderation! I needed to be a strong and loving mother to my son and needed to accept the love and support of my family and friends. I can’t say that I am completely healed from this, but I can say that I am optimistic about the future and know that we will have another baby when the time is right.
My goal for 2014 is:
1. Spend more time with the ones I love. Family and friends are everything to me.
2. Practice Bikram Yoga (hot yoga) at least 2 times a week. I love Bikram yoga for the physical, emotional, and mental benefits. It is the best workout I have ever done and better than therapy for stress.
3. I am going to work on eating more fruits and veggies. I am going to utilize the awesome food processor my mom gave me for Christmas. I have found that when I eat “cleaner” and exercise I feel and look so much better.
5. I am also going to set a goal of blogging once a week. I not only want to share deals and ootd posts, but I want to share about my life and how I cope and sometimes fail at the day to day responsibilities of being a working mom and wife.
Thank you to everyone who follows my little blog. I promise 2014 is going to be our year!